Painstaking happiness
I know its been months since I last posted. I've been busy with my other blog especially because of its association to my thesis. This entry means a lot especially now that I keep on getting more confused in our sudden status quo. Anyway, here goes:The most important man in my life has now found his better half. I am happy for him.. no doubt about that. But I really miss our bonding moments. I miss my movie buddy, my gadget hunter and my best friend. He is getting married soon and is slowly moving out of the house. The whole family now favors his decision and at the same time, his special someone is the ideal woman every man dreams of. The perfect companion.
But somehow deep down, I still long for some time with him and it hurts. Am I just being selfish?
Its been years since I last invested my feelings for someone so special and this is way too different from them. He's like my dad.. And yeah, its time he deserves the happiness he longed for. And because of that, the world I am used to is falling apart. Now I need to adapt a new environment. I must live with my mom once again. I just hope everything turns out different right now.
I hate it when you slowly let go of someone you've loved so much. It hurts.. but I know this is necessary so I can grow.
posted by the only juz @ 7/28/2008 09:56:00 PM
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