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LOADS OF STUFF TO DO AND IT'S NOT EVEN PRELIMS YET. Oops, I hope i'm not too abrasive because of the caps lock. AND HERE ARE THE BREAKING NEWS:I finally got my license!
My friend told me that this is one of the few experiences not even a celebrity can cheat. And since i'm not a celebrity, nor any important person, I waited for this little thing for 1 1/2 days! :o
My first "real" drive was when my gramps asked me to drive for him. WHAT AN EXPERIENCE. Anyway, i'm too lazy to post details.
This week has been a rollercoaster ride for me. I cried several times for some reasons that it gave me a hard time to cope up with my studies. Luckily, God gave me a second chance TWICE so, Lord thanks again. :)
I have this plate in Life Painting when we had to paint a colored woman in Nude. I suck at colors and this one, sucks.
Last Monday my friends and I went back to St. Paul and saw my sisterpals. Since they are the only batch that I know, they are the only people I took pictures with.
We have this impossible plate wherein we have to make it possible because it is about planning a major event commemorating our college's "50 years of artistic excellence". We had our first concept though wherein our prof kept on bugging us by telling us that we already have a 'germ of an idea'. All we have to do is masturbate it. (oops sorry kids I believe that after this post, my blog will be shut down by the MTRCB) But he really did say that so don't blame me. I'm no liar. hehe
I was assigned to do the copy of our radio ad so I went to my mom's house and asked for her help. She was in a good mood which was OK but the best part I enjoyed was bonding with my little sister Rayya.
and my favorite..
grar. :p
Last night was the best ADPRAC meeting for me. It was all about our lecture regarding radio ads and our prof was even funnier because our 'caucasian' friend was put on the hot seat. No introduction! yey! Because just in case he calls me, oh no.. I might dance the Mekeni hotdog jingle ad. ugh!
I guess that's all for now. Updates on our event: Project 50 and my tin can plate on PD will be posted on my next entry.
Btw, I guess it's ok to be friends with you-know-who. wwwwwaaa... gotta go! have to finish my f**king Life Painting plate!
Thank you Lord for this sign
As much as I enjoyed the 32 days full of fun, laughter and mirth... this is the day I decided to wake up, move on, and realize that this and you will only remain a fantasy; a fantasy so bad that it blurs my head so as not to see where I am heading to.Are you for real? Because you don’t know what its like for a person such as I to step up and give myself in for another ride.
You know how to play the game. I lost. I fell. And once again, you have prevailed. There are so many reasons for me to say to myself that this is just temporary. But then, I still doubted and looked on the brighter side considering that maybe this time there is something. I thought this time I’m not going to lose the fight because this time, I am going to stop you from haunting me in my dreams. I have to admit, I did move on but the world is so small we just had to bump into each other once more. I don’t know why but there is just something in you that I couldn’t resist.
We never really started out as real friends. And that has been a big factor to consider whether you’re trying to establish a dormant friendship or there really is something more than that. I was struggling and it felt bad because I was ungrateful for not appreciating every second of its bliss. I was happy but instead of just enjoying “it” I still kept on thinking what “it” was. My friends are right. Maybe I am too blinded. I led myself into believing that you could actually feel something for me this time. Guess what? Laugh all you want because another idiot is born! Pfft.
I like you. It takes more than a crowd of beautiful people to replace the intensity you’ve crashed in me. It’s not the number of bad pasts we’ve had that measures the durability of a long, possible relationship. It’s how you give the person a chance to prove what he/she is capable of. I want to be that person who would laugh with you through the good times... Understand you in your bad days… and just be ‘us’ without any hesitations. You motivated and inspired me in my studies. You fed my imagination with happy thoughts that even some of my classmates, whom I’m not that close to, noticed the good change. And by the time you read this I’m sure without a doubt, you’ll go away. You’ll freak out as soon as you read another fucking letter from me.
Whew… I guess that’s that. Of course I’d still want to be friends. Only this time, I’m gonna have to kill this emotion. It makes my reality dismal. By the way, this is not emo. It is not in my nature to be one.
So goodbye emotion… Please don’t ever come back. You nearly killed me.
Desideratum
Why must I experience a super damn unlucky day right after an unexpectingly overwhelming happy day! For the first time I actually got drunk with my college buddies not because i'm sad or what, but because I want to celebrate for having a lucky day.
Cheers to my 2nd plate for achieving a higher grade from the first plate. Presenting my new, homemade, DSLR Camera inspired by Canon:
Front side
Right side (forgot to take the left side)
Back part
Our prof in PD also told us to take a picture of our previous plates for our portfolio to be presented in the finals.
Yeah.. I guess I was stuck-up on this song
Our "lazy" prof miraculously dismissed us early! Now that's a first. :p After that, I just had my best drinking night with some of my best buds in class.
^ before
^ after our 2nd or 3rd horse
It was until 11:30 when we had to go home. Now I know the feeling of being asked "Maam, what is your last order? We're closing". As much as I had fun last night, I didn't actually remember specific details on my behavior or words I said.
June 13, 2007 ---> Friday the 13th
I didn't care about the date. I'm not a fan of superstitions because I was raised as a catholic who shouldn't believe in astrology, cults or whatever. Pero dahil pasaway ako, I still read my "future" and led myself into believing that Friday the 13th is a day full of jinx. I'm one of them..
I'm tired of elaborating them one by one but right now, i'm starting to feel hopeless about this person. I'm starting to think.. yes, that I could probably just be a friend. Actually, I was thinking about it already (ergo last post) but due to surprising events, I still felt a little hope. I feel sorry that my friends had to tolerate my whining everytime we get into this topic. And I must admit, I am blessed for having them. Thanks CGANG. I felt relieved because my guy friend, Carl, already knows who I really am. What's nice is that he accepted me for who I am. Like I said, I am blessed.
Right now, i'm starting to think like i've already inherited this kind of behavior from my mom. No not started, I do have this trait from the day I spoke the words "L-O-V-E". I don't want to say this but as much as possible, I must control myself from you. A friend of mine said this to me a while ago which is kinda flattering.. especially since the compliment came from her dad.
Friend's dad: She looks good..
Friend: I think its because of the happy factor
I want to stay happy.. think happy.. feel happy.. and BE happy. But
Kung magpapasaya sa iyo, gawin mo. Ihanda mo lang ang sarili mo sa consequence. Dahil ang "parang kayo pero hindi" stage ay bihirang nagiging totoo. Usually, hanggang doon lang siya... almost, but not quite..
-- http://ekawaii.blogspot.com/
Ouch. haha baka nga wala lang toh. Lord, sign naman oh.
Funny how I used to get irritated at my mom whenever she asks me what to do regarding her lovelife, and yet i'm beginning to sense that what I used to hate about her is already happening to me.I tested and risked that whole month of happiness and inspiration. My friends are right. It's about time to find out what that "whole month" thing really means. I'm not expecting anything. No, truth is, I am quite hoping... but deep inside, I think i'm just making a fool out of myself.
Whenever my mom used to say that she needs me because of her frequent 'Panic attacks', I just think of it as an excuse for attention. For the first time, I feel bad for myself. I didn't realize that advising anyone who is in pain with apathy words such as 'ok lang yan.' is not enough to encourage them and give strength to fight their paranoia. Once again, experiencing it isn't a fulfilling situation. Getting hurt because of your loss of control from that person made you weak from being the strong, happy person you were. I'm not saying that because of this, i'd go back to her and say sorry for realizing all this shit. I just want make myself realize that after tomorrow, if that special person doesn't communicate anymore, then I might as well plunge a "Don't you get it" signage into my head and stop hoping for the last time. That person is just.. different. My friend may be right. Maybe that person does look at me ONLY as a friend. Nothing else. Oh well, what should I do? Then just be who that VIP wants me to be.
It just happened. The challenge text just happened. I didn't want to respond that way.. Neither can I stand and resist the overflowing tension of giving in to the temptation. But like I said, after tomorrow, if I still don't get any text, haii... sad to say, my dream has been crushed. It's time to move on.
I don't want to lose this for the third time.. please Lord, make it work. It really kills me. :c
My Social Life...... is dead.
You got it.. Gone are those days wherein we could just let the day pass easily without feeling any guilt.We just had our 4 sleepless nights doing a calendar for only one subject which ended this evening, though still we had to research and plan this tedious event (or should I say total ad campaign) for our next plate. It doesn't stop. Not only that, but there are still other subjects who continuously pour down heavy work, as if a nimbus cloud had just gotten stuck on us. When will this stop? Oh crap.. i'm looking forward to our semestral break. I can't wait to stay in that private, solemn place called
Calatagan wherein we just had to sit on the beach, relax, maybe take a few dips on the pool, chill or probably play beach volley then relax. Okay, I better stop dreaming now. Speaking of solemn, this is the cover of the calendar I made:
Most of the feedbacks I got are like this:
'Whoo Holy Land..' or
'yung gumawa rebelde' .
It was actually hilarious because my personality doesn't really match this "theme". haha
You know, the people from the shop where I printed this were very nice. Especially the one who helped me print this one. I'm going to miss them. hehe
Hmm, I got a fair grade in Life Painting. I just found it a bit disappointing because I should've at least tried using another style instead of the usual realism. My friend got a 1.5 for attempting to be a self-proclaimed "German Impressionist". Wtf? Can you actually believe that? haha I could've at least tried to be the Pinay dadaist. haha okay that's enough haha for one entry.
My painting got a bit dark.. a few unproportioned parts, but luckily, the hand saved me. Thank you hand. :)
My ADPRAC4 class is freezing the hell out of me. Saturday nights in the freaking classroom feels like the Cocytus for me especially when you're with "lucifer". I even got a pic with my friend to show you how cold it is in there that you still need to wear a super thick sweater underneath, and a jacket on the outside.
And lastly, my mom had just given birth to a baby girl last Sunday June 24.
Her name is Arianne Raphaela A. Aquino
So I guess that's all.. I am so freaking tired I haven't even done any concepts regarding our 2nd package design plate.
Don't expect to read more entries unlike the previous month because "TONIGHT I DINE IN HELL." Or something like that. Anyway, i'm just a bit sad because i'm starting to feel inferior regarding others appreciating my concepts. Oh well, must try harder.
Hmm.. surprisingly.. you are consistent. Thanks for making my day.. este days. :)
Carpe Diem! ---> Seize the day. ;)
