Thank you Lord for this sign
As much as I enjoyed the 32 days full of fun, laughter and mirth... this is the day I decided to wake up, move on, and realize that this and you will only remain a fantasy; a fantasy so bad that it blurs my head so as not to see where I am heading to.Are you for real? Because you don’t know what its like for a person such as I to step up and give myself in for another ride.
You know how to play the game. I lost. I fell. And once again, you have prevailed. There are so many reasons for me to say to myself that this is just temporary. But then, I still doubted and looked on the brighter side considering that maybe this time there is something. I thought this time I’m not going to lose the fight because this time, I am going to stop you from haunting me in my dreams. I have to admit, I did move on but the world is so small we just had to bump into each other once more. I don’t know why but there is just something in you that I couldn’t resist.
We never really started out as real friends. And that has been a big factor to consider whether you’re trying to establish a dormant friendship or there really is something more than that. I was struggling and it felt bad because I was ungrateful for not appreciating every second of its bliss. I was happy but instead of just enjoying “it” I still kept on thinking what “it” was. My friends are right. Maybe I am too blinded. I led myself into believing that you could actually feel something for me this time. Guess what? Laugh all you want because another idiot is born! Pfft.
I like you. It takes more than a crowd of beautiful people to replace the intensity you’ve crashed in me. It’s not the number of bad pasts we’ve had that measures the durability of a long, possible relationship. It’s how you give the person a chance to prove what he/she is capable of. I want to be that person who would laugh with you through the good times... Understand you in your bad days… and just be ‘us’ without any hesitations. You motivated and inspired me in my studies. You fed my imagination with happy thoughts that even some of my classmates, whom I’m not that close to, noticed the good change. And by the time you read this I’m sure without a doubt, you’ll go away. You’ll freak out as soon as you read another fucking letter from me.
Whew… I guess that’s that. Of course I’d still want to be friends. Only this time, I’m gonna have to kill this emotion. It makes my reality dismal. By the way, this is not emo. It is not in my nature to be one.
So goodbye emotion… Please don’t ever come back. You nearly killed me.
posted by the only juz @ 7/17/2007 09:08:00 PM
27 Comments:
wow that was a good read. cute ending. lols. hope you feel better :]
hey im glad you appreciate it. Yeah i'm better :) thanks for reading!
ambien online no prescription generic ambien no prescription - ambien cr vs ambien 10mg
generic viagra buy viagra us pharmacy - viagra online usn pharmacy
order soma online buy soma with mastercard - buy cheap soma online no prescription
buy soma soma san diego young the giant - discount soma online
soma medication buy soma online cheap no prescription - soma radio
soma online soma muscle relaxer effects - soma san diego 21
buy tramadol online buy tramadol online no prescription usa - tramadol canadian pharmacy no prescription
buy tramadol ultram how to order tramadol - buy tramadol legit
cialis price cialis lower blood pressure - cialis online singapore
buy tramadol cheap no prescription can you buy tramadol legally online - tramadol overdose dosage
cheap cialis 20mg cialis price - cialis online to usa
xanax online xanax and alcohol more drug_interactions - extended release xanax high
buy cialis usa cialis 5mg daily reviews - cialis online review online pharmacy
tramadol without prescription tramadol withdrawal long does last - tramadol hcl 50 mg pill identifier
cheap clonazepam long does 2mg klonopin take kick - withdrawal symptoms of klonopin
buy klonopin online generic klonopin accord - accord healthcare generic klonopin
buy tramadol no prescription tramadol 50 mg to get high - tramadol 100 mg high
http://landvoicelearning.com/#51438 tramadol dosage in the elderly - tramadol 50mg dosage humans
buy klonopin online klonopin dosage options - klonopin dosage administration
buy tramadol tramadol buy 100 mg - tramadol hcl 100mg er
buy klonopin online lorazepam generic klonopin - klonopin withdrawal dosage
buy tramadol online where can i buy cheap tramadol - tramadol hcl 150
1, Terbinafine 250 mg - lamisil tablets for sale http://www.lamisilfast24.net/, [url=http://www.lamisilfast24.net/] Lamisil Sale [/url]
1, Accutane Online - isotretinoin no prescription http://www.benefitsofisotretinoin.net/, [url=http://www.benefitsofisotretinoin.net/]Isotretinoin Price[/url]
4, [url=http://www.klonopincheaponline.com/]Klonopin's Effect On Anxiety[/url] - Klonopin's Effect On Anxiety - order klonopin online no prescription http://www.klonopincheaponline.com/ .
Post a Comment
Subscribe to Post Comments [Atom]
<< Home