The Screen Junkie

.. melancholic distress ..

I'm sad.. i'm depressed.. or whatever you call it. I'm stupid, i'm toast.. And i've got red all over me! Nothing can make me feel 'ok' at this very moment... And not even these damn plates can get me over with. I'm sick and tired of backing out but not this time... so if ever you're wondering, what mood i'm into? Obviously.. I feel wrecked. I'm just bringing out the hell of a noise inside and see what happens after I shut this slowpoke unit off.

Why?. Why can't I get it out of my system? Why must it be hopeless? I'll continue this. Whatever it takes.. Hate me or not.. i'll still be waiting. I'll choose this kind of life rather than to escape it once again. Shoot me... just shoot me.. I don't care. But remember this name.. for it shall be the most loyal of them all.

Wow.. hearing this from a friend of mine nearly struck my broken head. Good thing it didn't... cause it already came 2 minutes later than the ground-breaking pound on the flesh. Still can't relate? Try using metaphors in real life and see how greater use their meanings can be.

Signing off.

posted by the only juz @ 1/30/2006 11:53:00 PM 0 Comments

.. A Predilecting Escapade ..

Who would've thought that someone like me could get away with 2 days of impulsive vacation and experience such long journey.

Friday.

First, there was the morality of choosing the wise way by attending P.E class and then hurrying myself after dismissal towards the LRT station. Reaching the fair on-time, I hadn't notice who I was to be with until I luckily found fellow colleagues.

Jayvee, me and Maricris.

Jayvee and I tried to find our good ol' Ms. Fern and ended up with Jayvee leaving and somebody surprising me at the back.

with Binky and Aya.

Shempre masaya ako nun dba.. But anyway, we stayed in the tower and bonded til it was their turn to 'folk dance'..

Shempre maliit yan, pero ipopost ko na rin.. :p

I won't tell you exactly the details of what happened after this but all I can say is that, this event is one of the best parts I gladly consider before my series of unfortunate events...

My friend RD arrived and stayed with us til the real adventure began. At first they had different sorts of plans til they decided to go to Seattle's Best. Due to some unlucky events, we (Binky, Ienne, RD, and I) rode a cab and went to the wrong cafe. Instead of going to E.Rod, we went to the branch at Tomas.

With Ienne.

We bonded a little then decided to go to E.Rod with another cab. This time when we reached the right cafe, they decided to go back to the school and left us following them. Another flickering event occured when they suddenly decided to go to the Ateneo fair.. and leaving us to standby at the school. The light part there was that we (Binky, Ienne and RD...) had a chance to bond with each other. Then we decided to go to Katipunan. Since Ienne had to go somewhere... Binky, RD and I rode the LRT, tricycle and stayed in another coffee shop.

Sa sobrang bored namen..

We waited for hours only to find us following them to the fair. It was a bit late when we got there but finally, we saw each other once again. We had to pay another 60php ticket to get inside only to find my tita sitting and managing her business stall so I didn't have a chance to get inside the fair itself. Badtrip talaga. It was like I got Jinxed all over my body ever since the afternoon started. Then we decided to leave the place and spent another tricycle trip towards the LRT station. I thought that since the babaan ng trike was close to my house, it would be cheaper for us to ride all the way in that trip. But then again, I wanted to spend the last 10 minutes of that day este night with the very reason I came and spent my way just to get through. And so it happened... at first I walked ahead of them trying to lead the way until this thrill (haha I used to label this code many times before) stayed beside me and apologized for the inconvenience. Honestly, it was worth it. I dunno why, but it was at that time the perfect moment. (Oh well, here I go again.) Anyway, we've come up to the very end of the night by saying silly but unforgettable goodbyes until they finally left. As for me and RD, we made use of our 28 peso budget and was able to get into my house on-time.

The feeling was very intense and I felt like I was on a tremendous high. I couldn't sleep so I talked to RD about our long trip that day. With that event, it was really worth it.

Saturday.

I've thought of coming up with an excuse on going to that school again. And fortunately, it worked. Anyway, I could honestly say that this wasn't a very good day for me. Kung ano yung ikinaganda nung kahapon, siyang ikinapangit ngayon. Well, not really, joke lang yun.. since I stayed with my friends and bonded til this so-called acoustic night. Let the pictures support nalang.

Meet cha-leven! hahaha

During the pilahan with co-T.22 Cyan, Colleen and Shiela ; with Kiara and Morai.

With Morai again; This time with my former P.E teacher Ms. Froi.

I left at exactly 8 o'clock right after I fixed some issues... Mahirap na.. But before that, I took a picture of this favorite someone with my favorite trademark. :p

hahaha and I probably think she won't see this.. :p lagot ako pag nagkataon.. :p

And as I reach my beloved home, my mom's friends were there and stayed over. I tried to sleep as early as I can just to conceal this somehow, piercing feeling of distress.

sad. muka bang sad? hehehe

As for today (which is Sunday)... It's a grandparents day!

We went to Promenade to watch:

This movie was so awesome my grandparents didn't fall asleep. :p Although I hated Hillary Duff for her incontestible transformation of being the cutie cute girl to this "wow-nice-teeth" and efforty look; I loved Tom Welling though he still looked a bit like Clark Kent. But nevertheless, I enjoyed the whole movie. Unsurprisingly, I saw lots of Paulinians; Along the tiangges... Timezone.. :p and even inside the movie house. grabee.. hehehe then we went to NBS near Gateway to buy some stuff.

And so before this very very very very long entry ends, i'd just like to accept this deserving jinx i'm into and feel pathetic for the rest of my days.. hahaha kidding! oa eh noh! But seriously, i'm still feeling a bit of depression. I guess it was indeed a dream and dreams are only for dreamers.. unfortunately, I am not one of them. That's why I have to stop denying what is obvious. Kaya ko toh.. sana.. hehe

I want to thank my best friend Trish and my good friend RD for being there. Thanks guys!

Now I have to cope up and get back to reality.. Plates... :s

Signing off.

posted by the only juz @ 1/29/2006 07:08:00 PM 0 Comments

.. Enhancing Relationships ..

I got this from a forwarded e-mail. I know that in some way, I sucked at these things but I guess this entry tells me that there's good in it. Finally, I received something worth reading..*Ehem! Ehem* for those who'll be needing this...

TRUST is a very important factor for all relationships. When trust is broken, it is the end of the relationship. Lack of trust leads to suspicion, suspicion generates anger, anger causes enmity and enmity may result in separation.

NO POINTING FINGERS. We all look forward to being loved and respected. Many people are afraid of losing face. Generally, when a person makes a mistake, he would look around to find a scapegoat to point the finger at. This is the start of a war. We should always remember that when we point one finger at a person, the other four fingers are pointing at ourselves. If we forgive the others, others will ignore our mistake too.

CREATING PERFECT RELATIONSHIPS? There is a saying that a perfect match can only be found between a blind wife and a deaf husband ,because the blind wife cannot see the faults of the husband and the deaf husband cannot hear the nagging of the wife. Many couples are blind and deaf at the courting stage and dream of perpetual perfect relationship. Unfortunately, when the excitement of love wears off, they wake up and discover that marriage is not a bed of roses. The nightmare begins.

NO OVERPOWERING. Many relationships fail because one party tries to overpower another,or demands too much. People in love tend to think that love will conquer all and their spouses will change the bad habits after marriage. Actually, this is not the case. There is a Chinese saying which carries the meaning that "It is easier to reshape a mountain or a river than a person's character." It is not easy to change. Thus, having high expectation on changing the spouse character will cause disappointment and unpleasantness. It would be less painful to change ourselves and lower our expectations..

RIGHT SPEECH. Many relationships break off because of wrong speech. When a couple is too close with each other,we always forget mutual respect and courtesy. We may say anything without considering if it would hurt the other party. Frequently exchanging these remarks plants the seed for a bad relationship. It's like a broken egg - cannot be reversed.

PERSONAL PERCEPTION. Different people have different perception. One man's meat could be another man's poison.You can never have everyone praise you, nor will everyone condemn you. Never in the past, not at present, and never will be in the future. Thus, do not be too bothered by others words if our conscience is clear..

BE PATIENT. Think about this story the next time someone steps on your feet or u wish to take revenge. Think first before u lose your patience with someone u love. Trucks can be repaired.. Broken bones & hurt feelings often can't. Too often we fail to recognize the difference between the person and the performance. We forget that forgiveness is great er than revenge.

People make mistakes. We are allowed to make mistakes. But the actions we take while in a rage will haunt us forever.

Galing pala noh.. sana maapply ko rin toh sa sarili ko. Kung meron man.. For as long as mahal mo nga naman yung tao.. Okayy... back to plates...

Share ko lang. Enjoy... :)

Signing off.

posted by the only juz @ 1/21/2006 09:10:00 PM 0 Comments

.. quondam ..

It's the prelim week. Meaning... harder quizzes and tougher plates in store.

Here's what happened to me in the last few days...

Monday. A "surprised" theology test. What is the best proof about God? I hope I got the answers right. For our Three-Dimensial Art... Next week na lang. Magpass na lang kayo ng drawing ng abs. Hmm.. yeah I like this kind of prof but obviously, he came to our class unprepared. Thanks, Now our plates are piled up. Were dismissed early, left the school early, arrived home early.

Wednesday. Design and Color 2... She gave us the toughest prelim plate... and that is.. doing a mythological creature with your own face in it using Mosaic Art. Unfortunately, she didn't arrive at the expected time so our class as usual, left off with the attendance.

Anatomy...

While waiting for our prof... Kulitan first with Bam... thank you Nel for the shades! haha



the continuation of our animal structure. This time, we're doing the muscular system of a cat. This is our prof's sample:

Thanks hijo.. ;)

I was able to draw 2 sketches of my favorites. Aquaman from the Justice League and the White Witch from Narnia. Just for me to be stable.. haha di mapakali.

And Later this morning. I woke up at 9 since I had to make up for my loss of sleep. (ok lang.. it was worth it naman eh.) I immediately finished my Perspective plate wherein I had to draw and construct an isometric view of my living room. Successfully finishing it at 11.. I hurried to the bathroom and fixed myself for my 12 o'clock class. As usual, I rode on a php100+ cab and arrived at school at 1. hehehe Then suddenly, I saw my classmates doing what I was doing this morning and realized that it was a good thing I finished mine early. My prof said it was nice and bahala na daw sha maggrade nun. ;p sana nga.. haha an hour later, we had to watch this boring program in the AVR along with other painting students. Leaving me and Nisha to bum around.

I left off early and right after I finish this entry, i'm afraid i'll be surrounded again by books. the BORING BOOKS. Math, Filipino, English.. you name it! hehehe

I have this song currently stuck into my head and I can't figure out how to remove it.. I might as well try posting it. Malay naten.. hehe The song is so well written.

..With a Smile..

Lift your head, baby, don't be scared
Of the things that could go wrong along the way
You'll get by with a smile
You can't win at everything but you can try.


Baby, you don't have to worry
'Coz there ain't no need to hurry
No one ever said that there's an easy way
When they're closing all their doors
And they don't want you anymore
This sounds funny but I'll say it anyway.


Girl I'll stay through the bad times
Even if I have to fetch you everyday
I'll get by if you smile
You can never be too happy in this life.


In a world where everybody
Hates a happy ending story
It's a wonder love can make the world go round
And don't let it bring you down
And turn your face into a frown
You'll get along with a little prayer and a song.


(Too doo doo...)
Let me hear you sing it
(Too doo doo...)

In a world where everybody
Hates a happy ending story
It's a wonder love can make the world go round
But don't let it bring you down
And turn your face into a frown
You'll get along with a little prayer and a song.

Lift your head, baby, don't be scared
Of the things that could go wrong along the way
You'll get by with a smile
Now it's time to kiss away those tears goodbye

Seriously, I went into a lot of thinking about the issues in my life. I hope i'll be able to recover later on because i'm afraid. Once again, i'm into this emotional cycle. I may or may not achieve the results i've been longing for.. I can't explain this everytime I try to analyze and find a way to resolve this matter. But it's a battle between my mind and heart. Too much drama, whatever. But it's the only way to face my fears. It may seem another false alarm... But I hope, I really hope. This is what she wants. My heart wants. Labo ko talaga. Sabi ko hindi na. Haii nako.. binabaril na talaga dapat ang mga martyr.

Signing off.

posted by the only juz @ 1/20/2006 04:23:00 PM 0 Comments

..The Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe ..

Last Sunday, we watched this movie. I was so amazed on how the book actually worked with the movie ( or vice-versa).

It's so nice to see your imagination being visually derived on the big screen. The creatures were great, Aslan portrayed his very strong but calm personality, and the White Witch Jadis with her super strength. Although there are parts wherein I really had to comment... it was the two "daughters of Eve". I really hated their acting. Instead of putting more emotions, it looked rather.. dull. A little minus point on the background effects but the rest... It was really awesome. We waited for 4 hours since the movie claimed to be a big hit. But it was worth it.. :) Even my grandparents loved it. :) Haii.. I can't wait to see the next one.. That is if they're gonna do it. ERRR... Anyway, i'll update this entry as soon as I finish these plates. Whew! i'm a little relieved since i'm done with my 1st DC plate. :p

And now.. back to plates.... :-s

Signing off...

posted by the only juz @ 1/10/2006 09:28:00 PM 0 Comments

.. slumber ..

I find this book hmm... full of vim. :p Unfortunately, I haven't watched the movie.. Although I remember seeing the older version with the grown-ups.

And since i'm 3/4 done.. the next book i'm planning to read is..

The Screwtape Letters by C.S. Lewis (yep.. the author of Narnia)

One of C.S. Lewis' most imaginative creations, this world-famous book is a humorous correspondence between the devil Screwtape and his apprentice Wormwood, whose job is to produce a human's soul for eternity in hell. Filled with astute insights into temptation, repentance, and grace, this wonderful tale intelligently explores what it means to live a good, honest life and is a favorite of Lewis fans.

I'm a little 'hooked up' with art and literature... thanks to this very influential person. :p hehehe But since classes are resuming on Wednesday, I may not update this blog as consistent as these past few days.. I'll edit this entry sometime with pictures.. :p As of now...

hehehe the last pic is my bro Kobe with our pretty cousin Andie while taking a shower..

Kids... :p

Ow.. before I forget.. Thanks Kate for the gift.. I really appreciate it.. and uhm.. I hope you're happy now. :) good luck. :) speaking of happy.. happy pala.. bleh! :p

Signing off.. the younglings are waiting..

posted by the only juz @ 1/02/2006 09:17:00 PM 0 Comments

.. Happy New Year ..

Welcome 2006! As the last day of the year 2005 ends.. I wish you all a new year that will 'this time' be different from last year's. I've also noticed that it's my bloggie's first year! wahaha

Due to the economical crisis, it was very obvious that the effect itself had startled the family's tradition and has brought scarcity to the celebration. But at least we still celebrated hours before the 10-second countdown with everyone on my mom's side.

The third generation. (w/o my bro. Kobe)

(Top: Anton, Justine, Jessica ; Bottom: Javi, Andie & Helga.ü )

Here are some pics I shot from the neighborhood.

Buti pa sila.. *not!*

I spent the whole night waiting for the new year by reading The Chronicles of Narnia: The Last Battle. The 7th and last book... and I must say the most awesome book next to The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe.

But I recommend that you enjoy the other six books before this in order to appreciate the chronicles.

Anyway...

It wasn't really that 'blast' but it was ok... So before I go.. i'm gonna greet another HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE! ü

AND..

*belated* HAPPY BIRTHDAY IVY MAURE!!

a.k.a my 'bet'

*ngayon ko lang napost.. hindi ko matapat sa dec. 28 eh.. topak ng blogger.. err.. anyway.. nasa letter naman na lahat ;) labyuu!! hehehe

Signing off.

posted by the only juz @ 1/01/2006 10:27:00 AM 0 Comments