The Screen Junkie

..a Clark and Lana article..

As you all know, I am not an avid fan of the Lana and Clark tandem. But watching recaps of Smallville seasons 3 & 4 made me think of posting an entry about these two lovebirds. Their on & off issue... and important morals that we all need to learn.

Now I understand why Clark and Lana just can't be together. Even if they both love each other very much, there will always be a side of them that shatters the relationship itself. See, if Lana is Clark's one great love, then why not spill the big secret? I guess the answer to that would be very complicated for her to handle. Too complex that even her faith already lost to what she always believed in... that she'll always wait for Clark with means of sacrificing everything else, even her own life.

But do you know what makes them both still attached? It's because no matter what happens in the story, their mixed emotions will always come rambling back and forth with their hearts and minds out. They try to balance both sides so they won't commit the same mistakes they did in the past. But the cycle never stops. And unintentionally, they still end up hurting each other.

Whenever one tries to reconcile, the other pushes him/her away.

Ironically speaking, struggling yourself through self-denial can actually concede you to self-sacrifice.

But you know... In real life experiences, I think this is one move we will all regret. Sure you believe that pushing the one you love away will dissipate the pain away. But what about the aftermath? Had not it's unstoppable effect took place when for a minute, you'll find yourself alone... staring point-blank with flashing memories of you and that person; Shooting you inside non-stop without even noticing that half of your time has already been wasted. Then as you gain consciousness, you deny the fact that you don't want that memory to be remembered anymore. So you spend another pack of hours, trying to convince yourself that you're already okay when you're really not. Self-denial... on the loose!

Somehow I also believe that for every corresponding action lies a reason that wishes no one to be able to seek. And that purpose is only for the doer himself.

Knowing that their feelings for each other are strongly mutual, Clark wouldn't dare to make any move that'll take them into complex situations again. So he pushes her away, and tries to convince her that friendship is more than enough for their relationship to go on.

No matter how much you crave for something, the only ones you're gonna get are the ones meant for you. I guess when it's not... you'd just have to let it go. Cuz no matter what you do, elements will always try everything to keep them away from you. Even your loved ones. I know it's not that damn easy, believe me. But humanely stubborn as we are, we'll still grab that opportunity and risk soo many chances of seeking pain.

And as for Clark 'Kal-El' Kent, I firmly believe that he truly loved Lana Lang. But knowing that he wasn't destined to be with her, he continued his journey to train himself to keep the world safe in his hands.

One great Self-sacrifice, and One great reason for me to patronize him even more.

-- Smallville 4.18: Spirit

Minsan lang toh... *pagbigyan* ;)

Signing off.

posted by the only juz @ 5/29/2005 01:25:00 AM 0 Comments

..and the winners are..

I'm uplifted for this great fight even if it lasted for like hours. Nah.. 7 rounds won't do you any harm right? ;) The result wasn't even a unanimous decision. I'd still congratulate these guys for giving their best shot at the Caesar's Palace. *salute*

Haii.. sayang ka.. :s wahahaha Constantine didn't even make it.. :( Oh well.. For the record, another girl on the count of the Idols. :p

It's kinda sad when you watch your bet lose the competition you've always supported with much enthusiasm right? But what I like in these reality-tv series is that another batch is yet to come. And i'm sure there's more to fun and excitement! cuz expectations are now rising... double the full disparagement of Simon or whoever mentor they'll have, double the people who'll keep on supporting them with their lives, and double the hope of each contender to gain trust in their selves to achieve their dreams.

That's all for now... Signing off.

posted by the only juz @ 5/27/2005 02:09:00 AM 0 Comments

..the night that made me smile..

Okay so my sister is out enjoying the weekend with her choir, Ate Len didn't come to work this morn, and my mom and her bf are spending the whole night with my other relatives to watch a gig in Greenbelt. My plans? To stay home and bum around until I fall asleep. *enk!* Don't think so! Actually I went with them... then off to Greenbelt we drove.

Parking was like hell... We just got lucky when my mom felt "the force" in the Museum parking lot. When we went to the Tavern of the Square to meet the others, we were suggested to register for the Globe Girlfriends Club for free entrance. As we enter our names for the raffle, there we met our other relatives. We got good seats, near enough to watch the live bands. The first band to perform was Escape. I think it was their warm-up cuz after their set and other Globe Girlfriends' mini-contest, Freestyle performed with loud audience impacts. They were soo cool especially their lead vocalist Jinky Vidal. They also had 2 new members that probably concealed the presence of their former member, Topo(?) cuz that's what my mom said... :s oh!! you should see how annoying the other ball head guy was! haha ang mean.. :p

*Btw.. to my mom's luck, she won the Trip for 2 Cruise ride grand prize unexpectingly. Geez.. we didn't even took it seriously at first! waha..*

After performing soo many beats.. everyone applauded and shouted for encore cuz it seems like they were still unsatisfied. But I guess we can't do anything about extension especially when they only performed for the Summer Event promotion. But anyway, this is the part where it all began. :)

The band Escape was to perform their last set wherein requests or what they call anything goes part soo I decided to send in 3 song requests and a greeting for my balikbayan tita. Before reading it, the band performed their chosen songs that hooked me up since their genre were the modern ones. In short, the ones I can relate with... So when they sang My Boo, Fall for You, and She Will Be Loved, I noticed the guitarist and found him very attractive. I told my tita first, then my mom and next thing I knew.. I was pushed towards the stage with the lead vocalist holding my hand and let me perform with the guitarist! :} GOD! he was soo cute... he sure got me there especially when he sang my song request! All around sha!! :o Anyway, he was performing Grow Old with You that time when the lead vocalist gave me the mic to sing with him on-stage! soo I tried to remember the song and hovered all my guts to sing in front of the audience.. :s My other tita even took a photo of me with him! I finished the song with him and finally sat down with full embarassment! But my companions supported me all throughout the night and teased me with unstoppable Uyyys and Yikkkeee!!!

But it was fun... :) and I had a great time singing with him.

The first thing I did was to send the pics to my fone via infrared. As soon as I got it, I just can't help smiling.. no not in front of his face! ..but to my peepz. And once again, they teased me until their session ended. When I was looking at the pic, I realized I wasn't satisfied at all. I wanted a close-up. haha kapal talaga.. But I was desperate to send in a request to the waiter and call him in the backstage since almost half of the members got out already. When I finally gave up, their lead vocalist approached us and introduced himself. He asked for my name and told me that he'll call the guitarist. Btw.. his name was Adam. :) soo my mom was grinning again and tried not to tease me until Adam arrived and introduced himself to us. We shook hands and my mom requested to take a picture of us in her phone.. I said 'thanks' and told him he was great back there and told us to go back and watch the band every Saturday at 9pm for this month. Right after he left, I sent the picture immediately to my phone and smiled til we had to leave. I kissed my relatives goodbye then went to the car, then straight home. :)

Until this moment I couldn't forget the funny experience I had this night. My mom winning the grand prize, a requested song performed by Adam and of course, singing one on stage with him. :)



I wish it could always be like this... for it inspires me to love my passion that makes me able to cultivate with anything I can. :)

watch the band Escape at Greenbelt every Saturday at 9pm. nag-plug daw ba.. :p

AND BEFORE I FORGET...



Signing off.

posted by the only juz @ 5/22/2005 02:21:00 AM 0 Comments

..a lucky day experience..

The 20th of May turned out successfully as we planned. I woke up at 10 and dressed up the new Juz way and spent the day with my good ol' friends at Gateway. 11am, Rosz and I rode the LRT and hurried to the moviehouse to fall in line for the most-awaited Star Wars flick. Back there I thought we'd be able to watch later than we've ever imagined but to our luck! We got very good seats.. :) When Baj arrived, we had unstoppable kwentos that lasted til 12... then Helen arrived with her chaperon. From there, we decided to wait for the others in the food court cuz we were soo hungry and the movie was to start at 1... then Trish came with her family. One blooper I made was that I confidently fell in line and chit-chatted with Helen until I realized I had no more money in my wallet! Good thing Helen was there to pay up since I payed for her ticket... then finally, Jaiz arrived. There were soo many people dining out that occupied every single table in the area... But to our luck! 2 aligned tables were left vacant. It was good enough for everyone.. :) Soo another kwentuhan sessions were held.

The most awaited movie of the year.



First we got some snacks.. picture taking numbah one.. then went off to cinema 3. Like I said, we had good seats. :) Jaiz, Trish and I were the serious ones who understood every single part while Helen, Rosz and Baj had fun observing the movie and it's effect on our elastic faces. But all reacted on the last part.. and Trish was definitely, the most affected one. :p

The movie was really good that made me say "the long wait was WORTH IT!" Im telling you.. Watch it in theatres near you. :)

Pic-a-thon part II.

After the movie, we shared our funny comments, headed directly to the movie poster. But before that... pee first.. :p



Hala! Pati CR di tinantanan!


This is what you get when you don't want to spend yourselves a studio pic!!

It is in our habits to take a picture of ourselves as if we were tourists from the mountains who has never seen a moviehouse. We can also consider it as an embarassing but 'the hell they care!?' feeling BUT.. it was fun. :)

Explore.. Explore.. Explore..

Stores. Found a favorite, Fully booked. :) Lots of superman books there.. :o Friends. reunion of Hssians and other Paulinians.



and Memorable moments in our life shared on and lessons found in it. It was very nice updating your childhood friends and realizing their indefinite acts of mutualism in understanding and lending out of ears to everyone. We sat down in our very lucky seats in starbucks til Trish and Jessa had to go.


One last before Jessa leaves...


Ang bagong version ng ET... Coming SOON.


Yesh! I'm proud to announce my latest movie..


... and my latest bishnesh.... :p

We went back to the movie house and took again pics til we finally rested in the food court. I saw my fellow batch mates again til Helen had to go already. Jaiz, Rosz and I were the ones left and shared again este.. reminisced about mushy stuffs. When Jaiz's mom arrived, it was Rosz and I's turn to leave. So we took the LRT again and rode the trike til I reached home safely.


SPOT THE DIFFERENCE.

Hehe Thanks bespren!! labyu! mwah!!

A day's end.

I never thought that this day would end. And for the nth time.. I say to my friends, Ang swerte talaga natin ngayon. :)

Cuz one thing's for sure... It was destined to be this way.

Signing off.

posted by the only juz @ 5/20/2005 09:22:00 PM 0 Comments

..chrissy and cat's debut..

I consider this one a very creative way to celebrate your 18th birthday. This is one hell of a party wherein you wouldn't see girls in their gowns nor guys in their tux. No cotillions.. no dramas.. no elegant dancing.

Arrival.

I went with my friend Valene to this bubble party and brought extra clothes for safety. Seeing my batchmates made me feel more comfortable not just because of other peepz I hardly knew.. but the warm welcome they always treat us even when we were still in highschool.

Amnesia.

2 bottles of weng-weng + 1 glass of margarita + 2 shots of blowjob = ?

Actually, I barely remember anything. All I know is that, we danced and roared around the whole night!


suds all over my face and Nie.


The birthday girl Cat!!


a pic with my meatballs Danna right before she left.


tweetie.juz.carla.bim.katz "the wet girls!"


My other batchmates: Mule, Olga and Steph.


Gail.. hmm.. in heat? ;p


soaked with pretty faces..


WHOA! XXXXXX toh! haha go Howie!!

Anyway.. i'm gonna update this post soon cuz I'm gonna have to remember everything.. All I know is that.. after the party, I had a rough time sleeping and ended up with a hangover til the other night.

This night remains a memory of myself exposed on the high side of life. I'm out.

posted by the only juz @ 5/19/2005 03:20:00 AM 0 Comments

..A date with my buddy..

It was a saturday when I was supposed to watch Amityville Horror when my mom told me to watch the Wedding Date and babysit. Then she suggested me to watch on Monday with Ate Len but I thought of bringing an old friend along soo we could bond the whole day and catch up to where we last stopped.

Monday. 05/16/05

I arrived at Rosz's house cuz she needed to fix her dad's pc. Read her treasurable memorabilias from special people *ehem!* then buzzed off! :) For the experience, we walked towards the LRT station cuz there was no trike around. Unfortunately we found one when we were already halfway done but anyway, we rode it.

It's a date (:-O)

haha you can say that again! :) we raided Gateway all by ourselves! No chaperones whatsoever.. Unlike before, my sister would go with me and chit-chat all the way home... hehehe :p Anyway, We first bought our ticket to...

And this really freaked us out. But before that,

We bought gifts for my friends who are celebrating their debuts this coming 18. Then, we ate fries in the food court while waiting for the movie..

The Amityville Horror.

We bought snacks. Popcorn, candies, beverages, yan-yan.. you name it! And because of that...

*blurb* more calories... *stuffed*

Sheesh.. It was also funny remembering that our excuse for watching the creepy parts was blocking our faces with the popcorn bucket, or offering each other a bite of yan-yan. But it was great! :) then after that.. we took ourselves a souvenir for that and other flicks. Then, we roamed around the mall again.. :)

The 7pm curfew.

Unfortunately, I had to go home before 7 cuz my relatives had just arrived from the US. So we took the LRT again and trike and said goodbyes. meaning.. see you on friday.. ;p

It was great bonding with my best bud again.. Last time we hung out was when we were still reviewing for the entrance exams for college. But my grandma was right, I'm soo lucky to have her as one of my long-time friends including the others and my besty Trish cuz we don't often get to keep these kind of people who have always been with us and knew us from the start. :)

Btw.. I feel soo happy receiving the complete season 3 of Smallville on original DVD and a big-sized collectible doll of Superman! :O whohooo!!

Signing off.

posted by the only juz @ 5/16/2005 12:52:00 AM 0 Comments

..when you're just in front of a big screen..

Having been isolated from your daily routine seems a lot more fun than sticking, predicting and relying on what to do next. But on the other hand, coping up and sharing what i'm into these past few days wouldn't be such a bad idea.

the PS2.

Over the years I can still remember my childhood years with a tape-like video games clasped in my arms. I'd stay up late and wait for my daddy to arrive from work to play the toughest games with cheesy graphics til dawn. I've grown up with different kinds of consoles and geez!! you can really see the fast evolution of these innovations. What is it that these gadgets sell like hot pancakes in the market every year and hook people of different ages? :o

When the popular Family Computer was outdated, the Nintendo - Sega competition begun. I can always tell that Super Mario and Sonic the Hedgehog had one main goal... and that is to get rid of those rolling monsters and keep on spinning to collect coins / rings until you reach the finish line. Before the Millenium surpassed, Sony invented a powerful console called the Playstation that captured twice or maybe thrice the population other Video game companies had. And I was a victim of it. The first game that caught my eye was the very popular Tekken 3. Soon succumb my golden time were the Final Fantasy series. Then a more enhanced and upgraded console arrived, which we call the PS2. I could really describe myself as an addict because of the frequent visits to the former greenhills virra-mall and endorse piracy just to be able to play. I'd feel my own self getting homesick and think of crazy strategies and unlocking other secrets of the game. But when other things came to my life, I didn't felt the addiction anymore.

For some time I stopped, leaving it all somewhere beneath the cabinets; thinking that I was getting too old for it. Then I started playing again. Getting insomniac just to finish every level. Does Prince of Persia: The Sands of Time seem familiar to you? Well for me, it's one heck of a game I wouldn't forget.

Playing with younger people is so much fun especially if they look up to you because sometimes... it may be you who'll learn a lot from them. :)

Reality ; Drama - TV shows.

The Amazing Race 7 has ended. Who would've thought that begging in the competition led to Uchenna and Joyce's victory? The countdown to the fight at Caesar's Palace in Las Vegas has just begun. Who will it be? Jesse the Entertainer, Peter the Comeback Kid, Alfonso the Underdog or the Latin Snake Sergio Mora? Watch out for the fight of your life on May 25 10pm at AXNas these finalists will show us the concentration to win the Ulitmate prize for their families in the Contender. Speaking of season finale, a 90 minute special will be aired on the 18th of May in Smallville.

No wonder our television heats up so fast. Staring in front of the screen set with your mind and heart out the whole day shows another symptom of addiction. The sad part is, you won't notice your eyes feeling low -- literally... As if your eyeballs are about to pop out. Anyway, just prevent this one as much as possible. You wouldn't want to face the mirror and see the aftermath of what you've just glared into.

Movies.

Nothing beats the big screen if you're looking for a major cure for boredom. Ayala, Eastwood, and Gateway cinemas are your types of moviehouse you'd want to couch in with your popcorn and drink. Soo far, The Interpreter stands out in my list. This movie is not your typical Ngek! magkakatuluyan din pala sila sa huli. You'd really see the difference if it's a tatak Filipino movie or an American one. Notice how our homemade movies end? They'd see to it that these loveteams would capture the aww's of the audience. But when it's international? I guess what they'll prioritize more is the main theme.. Using their Stick to the Conflict with twists and turns will surely amaze its own audience. And I guess that answers why Filipinos prefer to watch English ones than their very own. Hey.. I have nothing against our culture and its interests.. but observation and standing out my own opinion makes more sense at all.

What's in store? :-/

Tomorrow i'll be going to Gateway with my best bud Rosz and watch Amityville Horror. hah! *im soo excited*.. Then off to my daily routine in house#2.

Anyway i'm off. since God gave me the chance. :p I get to post out a new entry and update my blog. *Finally!* Cuz if this blog is real.. and I mean literally.. cobwebs and dirt are now in dominance.

I miss my friends. Highschool and Childhood ones. To those who are outside the Ph.. Send in a plane for me! :p hehehe love you guyz!! and for those who are stuck inside the boundaries of this land, take care aryt? :)

Signing off.

posted by the only juz @ 5/15/2005 01:54:00 PM 0 Comments

..sneek preview : superman returns..

Brandon Routh in the new Superman suit.

On my opinion:

The 'S' on the chest looks a bit different.. It's a little sharper.. :-/? , the position is higher than the usual height.. and they've finally changed the buckle. From the oval shaped to the flashing 'S' symbol. Not bad. His cape and footwear were preferred to have darker colors than the typical bright red and yellow shaded ones. But nevertheless, i'm excited for this. :) I bet i'll be having more difficulties when it comes to finding superman items when this season comes.

posted by the only juz @ 5/02/2005 01:14:00 PM 0 Comments

..responsibility..

posted by the only juz @ 5/01/2005 01:37:00 PM 0 Comments